Well...hie. I guess its totally been soo long since my last post on this blog. Like years back. Wow how time flies sooo fast.

Updates updates... im engaged for 2 yrs, then married for 1 yr plus already. The best thing is that im a mother to a 3 mths plus baby boy! Wohoo!!! I remember how much ive always wanted a boy for my first baby and tadaaaa thank god my wish came true. I cant describe how happy i am...how wonderful i felt to finally have my prayers answered my dreams slowly to came thru.

I used to dream abt having someone to love n love me back for who i am....i found him...on 15 July 2010 we r together....
I used to dream abt marrying and spending my life with him... It happened....on 7 March 2014 im officially his...
I used to dream to have my own house.... It came true.... On Sep 2014 i receive e keys to my new house....
I used to dream to have my own kids..a baby boy......God gave me tat gift... On 05 May 2015 i gave birth to a healthy baby boy I name Amsyar Muaz.
I used to dream to have a family of my own...and I finally did... Me..My husband..n Junior...

What more can i ask....

But anyway im still stuck in Singpost...haha. Been dragging myself to work. Holding on because of family stuff and now jus waiting for my house to b fully ready and im determined to move off from there. 

Now having a child is another phase of my life...thgs change...thgs to adapt. My everyday routine will change. I hope that i will pull through it and raise my son to b a gd person. I pray that everythg will turn out well for us.

Im currently still on Maternity leave which is ending end of this mth. Haish how fast time flies and i wonder how am i gonna leave my son and go to work. I feel so heavy hearted.  My mother in law is too tired to look after my son so my family members will alternate takes care of him while im working. The one off will have to take care of him. I hope it will work. Haish maid is too expensive....infant care is a no no when he is below 1 yr. I jus dont like the idea of a stranger taking care of my son.

Alright im off now.....my son awake soo have to entertain him..hah Life of a mother..a parent...

Sign off 
Nana

7 sept 2012

Its 1 am and im trying to sleep. Im so damn tired and worn out but then im struggling to sleep.

Work is so overly stressfull and tiring for me. I would feel super tired by the end of the day. I just couldnt take it anymore but keep on forcing myself to continue. Everyday going to work i have to pray hard that nothing gonna go wrong. No unreasonably impatient customer, no missing articles, no compains, no shortage etc.... Not a day ever goes by smoothly.

Everyday i feel like crying having to go through the shits at work. Wiyh a bad staff welfare... Bad services...and all i cn do is swallow it all and suffer. Even my fiance cnt take it seeing me suffering.

I pray hard god would give me guidance. To test me up to where im strong enough to endure. Coz honestly i cant anymore 😢

July 30 2012

Went to cut and dyed my hair. Satisfied with e outcome.😊

Breakfast with bestie. A treat from
Her, fish manhattan. And now trying my best to get some sleep cause again have to go through the shitty work week.
Everday i wonder how long am
I going to stay and suffer in this job.
And again i have no answers. Im seriously tired as in very tired.

Seeing the new staff already taking leave i wonder why didnt i. One day wont do much harm isnt it. I dont know when are they going to rotate the duty cause im seriously tired handling parcel counter duty.

July 28 2012

Sleeping late again. Later after work going out with fiance and besties. Always have problem thinking what to wear because im going out straight from work. I wish i could somehow have a five days work. Or at least alternate saturdays.

Its damn tiring when to think of it.
Anyway my bby seems to be loosing weight quite drastically. Hmm dont know why.

July 27 2012

Its 1:22 am and i cant seems to get myself to sleep eventhough i am feeling very tired. Its hard to sleep when your mind still running. Honestly my mind is tired, im physically and mentally tired.

Every single day, not able to sleep without having to think about work. About the things at work and hoping that evryday at work will go smoothly.
Sometimes i wonder why others can say no and get away with it easily when it comes to me i cant bring myself to say no or retaliate.

Honestly i cant take it anymore. My body, my mind just cudnt take it anymore but its like having to force to hold on through it.

I keep on telling to myself things will get better but then things never get any better. I never tried and i always wants to try to make it better to change e things but e self confidence is not there. And i choose to keep
On goin through the suffering and shits.

July 24 2012

4th day of fasting. Alhamdulilah manage to go through it. Manage to hold on to it despite the tiredness and the stress at work. E good thing is that i slowly start to pray. Well not exactly 5 times a day but at least manage to pray. Thats the only way i can find peace.

Just another four more days to go through the late shift work. Just pray the days would go smoothly.

I miss my fiance alot already. I and him going on fine still strong despite some arguments and misunderstandings. I pray hard that our journey is bless and goes on smoothly.

Honestly, im really tired with this job. Everyday have to put up with all the stress and worries. i just hope that god give me guidance as to where i should go and what to do.

Now im gonna get some rest.

July 22 2012

Second day of fasting went smoothly. Made it through...alhamdulilah... Manage to pray. Alhamdulilah....

E dugaan is more to come in e weeks to come. Werking week and i pray hard its gonna go smoothly. Second shift is not my favourite and i hope it goes well. Dont wanna do any ot during fasting month. Its tiring.

Haish....i need leave and i need days of rests....