Have looonggg talk with my parents and i feel sumhow a whole lot better.....
Listening to the stories during their younger days....
Which make me sumhow believe that sumtimes no matter how far you go....
how twisted your path is if god has already fated u to b with that sum1 you will end up with that sumone and sometimes that some1 is actually all e way right in front of you....
Just like how my mom and dad stories....
It doesnt hav to start lovey dovey....romantic kind of stories...
Its the unexpected scenario....from jus mere friends...close friends having their own path of life..different love life....for years and unexpectedly end up together....
Its true what my dad says....no matter how hard you search for the one....if god fated you to b with that particular sum1 u will end up with them no matter how unexpected it cud b.....
Thats what dey call fate or jodoh la kn....

And from all the stories that my parents share with me....i learn sumtink...i realised dont b tooo goood n nice....coz pple wud definitely take it for granted....sumtimes u hav to b selfish n self centered....so that pple wont step on u....but being brought up in a family that thinks too much of other pple feelings instead of ourself its hard to kick that habit away....easily sympathize on other pple....too lenient on pple...and keeping silence even if e mistake is right in front of us....
I realised that no matter how good u r to pple...or how nice u r to pple...u still end up getting e sucky part......bcoz ders still exist pple who dont noe how to appreciates n like to take this kind of pple for granted...

Seeing how thgs fall apart in the family just because of outsiders create a fear in me to even hav outsider in my life....fear that the same thing wud happen again.....When parents touch a topic on marriage...i was taken aback....and one funny qns pop out from my mouth.."tk kawin tkleh eyk?" haha....all my dad cud say was "tkmo ckp mcm gtu...ni smue kn ketentuan tuhan..kawin tu satu bende yg di galakkn oleh tuhan..." hmmm.....if only he knew what ive been goin thru all this while...he wud noe y im asking tat qns....

Anyway.....der no need to actually touch soo much of my family matters here....im just glad i have that long talk with them....i jus want to focus on making dem happy and live life easy.... =]]

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