Its been soo long since ive started to write a blog again. I realised i needed one again. Its a just another alternative for me to express things out, things that im unable to express it out to peoples.
Life has been fine...but cant lie its totally smooth. Getting frequent headaches and migraines really bothers me. Im loosing weight somehow drastically and yes i noticed it too. When i look in e mirror, all i see is a frail, tired looking girl who lost the light on her face n her eyes. Staring at e person in e mirror everyday i have to keep on telling, it will get better, days will get better. Be strong, keep moving, bt deep down inside she noes she's breaking. She knows she cant take it anymore. Crying out evry single day to relieve herself. Hw she wishes n pray hard to god evryday to show her guidance, to test her to whr her limits is. Cause e truth is she have no strength to go thru it.
Ive learned that when good things are about to happen or plan to happen, hurdles...hard times always comes to visit.why? Its like e better e things gonna happen, the more n harder hurdles comes by. I guess its just god ways of testing us before we deserved the good things to happen.
The truth is i'm tired, really tired. I
Know myself that complaining wont do good. I know myself that there is others which is facing harder and worser situation than me. Thinking about that i try hard not to whine and complain but somehow im still a human with limitations, feelings. I cant stop being stress and pressured.
Yes im blessed to have a loving and supporting family, a loving fiance...but not a great job.
Everyday things running through my mind. Collecting many....savings...marriage...house...and because thinking of that im still holding on to my job eventhough its killing me and im suffering in it.
I really2 wish and pray hard that days will really get better. I just wants myself back...😞
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